we're all mad here

we're all mad here

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17 years old | girl | anxiety disorder | selfharmer | depressed | binge disorder| --------------------------------------------

Last cut: August 2th 2014

Longest fast: 1 week


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I hate myself so damn much.

“I’ve been strong for too long. Sometimes I’m feeling some kind of happiness, but then it comes sneaking in on me, and everything is “normal” again.”

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what a panic attack entails: hyperventilation, nausea/vomiting, abdominal pain, diarrhea, headaches, uncontrollable crying, uncontrollable shaking, heart palpations, sweating, dizziness (probably caused by hyperventilation), chills, hot flashes, dissociation, willing to put self in harms way if necessary to escape a situation

what a panic attack is not: feeling nervous


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Do you remember how empty you felt the day someone you loved left? Doesn’t matter who it was, doesn’t matter how they left. Just feel that feeling inside your chest, the emptiness, the aching, the numbness, the sad, the cold. It feels so empty that you can physically feel it, right? You don’t want to get out of bed because there’s nothing worth waking up for. You consider suicide. Now imagine being that way since you were little. Imagine that depression is decades long of the same heartbreak. Imagine that you feel this way when you wake up, sometimes for no reason at all.

Do you remember the last time you faced one of your fears? Doesn’t matter what fear. One that most people can relate to is public speaking. Do you remember how scared you were? Do you remember feeling everybody’s eyes on you? Do you remember shaking? Imagine feeling that all the time. Imagine that every second of your life is a presentation and the whole world is an audience.

Do you understand it now?

2:46 p.m. (Maybe if I explain it this way, more people will understand)

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Trusting people is becoming hard

Keeping my grades up is becoming hard

Feeling pretty is becoming hard

Thinking happy thoughts is becoming hard

Doing work is becoming hard

Maintaining a friendship is becoming hard

Doing everything is becoming hard and I don’t like it

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A suicide note


My head is spinning

My skin is screaming “cut me now”

I’m losing my mind, but no one notice

Everyone is caught up in their own silly world

I can’t handle this pain

The pain is everywhere

And I can’t take it anymore

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